"I'm like fungus. Either I grow on you and you like me, or I make you really sick." If you have not seen it yet, this little quote is on almost every bio I have. It's a Tanya original and really describes me, and all my friends who really know me would agree. I'm a very likable person and if I call you a friend, I mean it. Friends are the backbone of my life, without the friendship they provide I would be as solid as..... pudding. The friends that have stuck by the longest would be Kelly, Keshley, Kerry, Colton, Murray, and Lindsey. If I'm upset, these people know right away. Friendship to me is the traits I have with these people. I can talk to them openly and honestly about ANYTHING and they can do the same with me. Friendship is the ability of listening as well as speaking with me. I've run across people that want friendships where it's always them whining about themselves and never let anyone else say one word of their troubles. That is not a true friendship. Friendship is what I have with my friends. I would donate a testicle for them (if I had one). That's serious! In all seriousness, I would do everything in my power to help them if they needed me to, and I would even if they didn't need me to.
As with all relationships, we have our fights. You can't be emotionally close to someone and not have fights. It's impossible! What is truly awesome about fights with my friends is our ability to talk to each other and get over it. If you can't be honest with your friends then who can you be honest with? If I annoy them, they tell me and we get over it. They forgive me, I forgive them and then we go party. Why am I going on about all of this? I have been hurt recently. I let someone into my bubble this last year, and he's been all over my Facebook, and he started me on blogging. I told him EVERYTHING, because I thought, hey this is the real deal friendship and I know it will last. Well apparently, it wasn't as serious on his end. I grew up in a family (and all my friends are the same) where it is nothing to pick and torment each other by calling names. Hey dork! Hey weirdo! Well what terminated mine and this guy's friendship. I called him a "douchebag." He immediately deleted me from his Facebook, has yet to reply to any texts/messages/IM's. I didn't originally know what was wrong. I was so confused and yes I did shed a tear or two over it. This has really made me take a step back and look at my friendships and relationships with people. How do people manage to trust so many times knowing this stuff happens? I know I will be wiser in the future to who I disclose information to because of this incident. It in all reality was really immature. That's why I have the friends who have been with me for years. Silly stuff like a bad name doesn't hurt what we have. Yea, we all have habits that annoy one another but I still love them anyway. I learned to live with it, and I know they may say something in anger that they don't mean and I will forgive them for it like I know they would forgive me. They can talk to me if I can make them angry! That is a truly valuable trait to have in a friendship. I can trust them with my life! However, I am going to pay closer attention to new friends and specify in the beginning that I am who I am and how I am. Either I grow on you and you like me, or I make you really sick.
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