Dealing with Anger

    'Blue. Penguin. Tree roo. Paper. Pen. Door.' Ordinary words right? Yea. 'Love. Hugs. Prayer. Smiles. Laughter'. Still ordinary words right? Yea. 'White. Black. Fat. Ugly. Slut. Whore'. Yet again ordinary words right? Yea. Each set of words produce a different feeling, or at least to me they do. I've ran into the problem of how much words can hurt recently. Yes, they are just words, but isn't it horrible how much angry words can have an effect on us? It sucks hardcore when the words are said by someone special to you. You know they really do no mean it because they might be angry but it doesn't hurt any less at the time, and you also tend to never forget it. You may forgive them, and you may move on, but it just sticks with you.
    I'm not sure which emotion I hate worse. Anger or sadness. Sadness is bad but there's always someone there if you're just willing to let them be there. Anger though? Anger tends to cause more damage than good. Everybody has ran into the problem of saying things in the heat of anger that you may or may not mean, or you just mean them at the time but later you're thinking, "No, that's not really how I feel." I would consider myself a passionate individual, and tend to take things overboard way to much. I don't necessarily mean to, but it just happens. I'm a hypocrite, a liar, suffer from jealousy, and I can curse with the best of them. When I get angry, I get freaking angry. I find the best way to deal with anger is to just talk about it really, or destroy things... That's always helpful. I hate being angry and hurting people on purpose with words, and that's what I aim for. If I'm hurting, I'm going to make sure they are too. I have a family that has an awful temper. When we get angry, shit hits the fan. People yelling and cursing. Fists and furniture flying. It's awful, and the words that come out of everyone's mouths? They hurt. Yea, we get along after, but I still remember my sister calling me fat and ugly. She doesn't really think that but it was still said.
     How do we help our anger? How can you prevent from hurting somebody? I write. I write like nobody's business. Blogging, pen and paper, or even texts. I find someway to cool down my anger. Music is good, turn it up loud and rock out. I go and lift weights or box with someone. I also like to cook. I'm not sure where this whole thing was going. I guess the ending message is words hurt. Watch what you say. I guess the phrase "If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all," comes to play. It's all about learning how to control ourselves. Yea, it feels good to say it now, but I know when I say something mean I feel so guilty. I literally want to crawl in a whole and hide. So watch what you say. I've learned my lesson more then I wanted to lately.