Out of all the.... 18 years of my life I never thought that I was someone girls could be jealous of. Call it low self-esteem or what you will, but there's other girls who are way prettier than I am so I figured they would never be jealous of me of all people. I've been on a role running into jealous people lately. I went to go see my best friend last night. Now me and Colton have an iffy relationship at best. We've been friends since the third grade, dated once, and kissed a few times before I left for college. We are constantly liking each other at the very wrong times. In his house I am known by his mother as her future daughter-in-law. Is this probable? Who knows? (Although I think him and his current girlfriend will end up marrying. I was always too much for him to handle.) So I was over there last night and apparently it upset his girlfriend. My thoughts were, "You have a great guy who loves you, and he is the most trusting guy I know, why are you doubting him?" Well, she wouldn't accept the simple fact that I'm in love with someone who's frankly just not him and someone who is completely different. I didn't like the fact my being around him made her upset, but I'm so tired of dealing with my guy friend's significant others! I am friends with mostly guys and I'm friends with them to avoid relationships with them. I'm scared of relationships because of many reasons and I don't want hurt again.
High school through my first semester of college I have been facing jealous/upset girls like this. My reactions upon coming across chicks my guy likes is at least get to know them first, because who knows? They could be your next best friend. Actually, I have a good example of this. One of my closest guy friends who I would not have been able to survive this semester without is Tysonn (you know like Mike Tyson or the chicken company?). So he has more or less been friends with benefits with this girl for about 5 months now, but I know he's quite serious about this girl *insert little hearts and oohs and ahhs*. I was on Skye about the middle of December and I get a contact invite from this girl. I was like yay I finally get to talk to this chick! At first I was worried she was going to interrogate me because of how close me and Tysonn were and how much we talk, because we talk ALL THE TIME. I think she was a little worried at first and that was the reason behind the invite. Well she messages me and we're talking and no joke, it felt like I was talking to my sister. I felt I could tell her anything and it was surprising because that's not what at all what I was expecting. I'm used to girls hating me because of my friendship with their guys! I just wished more of my guy friend's girls got to know me before hating me! Girls just need to chill sometimes, but us being girls and having hormonal tendencies we tend to fly off the handle sometimes. I've learned to get to know the people my friend's are interested in, but then again I've always been friendly. I don't know. I just get tired of girls not liking me or talking bad about me because of guys. It gets annoying. Maybe I need to find new friends of the same gender? But guys are so much easier to be around! I feel better laying around playing video games than I do shopping anyways. I have learned to chill, and relax! If I have a problem with a girl I either confront it or get over it because jealousy is a petty thing that everybody deals with, but in the end it's how you live with your jealousy that tends to aggravate people.
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